Today is November 9th, and as I look at this date, I reflect back on what this date has been for me in the last two years. November 9th 2005, I was pregnant with our first child, and had just received the news that our baby of 12 weeks was gone. It was the worst news I had ever gotten, and was completely crushed to find out that our dreams of having a baby were not going to happen. On November 11th 2005, I had the surgery that offically ended my first pregnancy.
Those were some very dark days for me. Many days I wasn’t sure if I could get out of bed and go on with life, with thoughts of me never having a child. However, in the midst of the valley, I grew so much closer to my Savior than I ever had before. I found comfort only in His Word and His promises. This verse resonated in my mind each time I prayed for a child…”Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
Flash forward to November 9th 2006, I was pregnant with our second child, Caledonia Marie. We had already heard that precious little heartbeat and seen an ultrasound several times. I was preparing to go on bedrest, as Callie was anxious to make her entrance into the world. It was a wonderful time, getting to rest and prepare for the little blessing I was about to have. Each kick and movement was God’s reassurance that everything was in His hands.
And now, November 9th 2007… as I sit here writing this, I have a beautiful little daughter playing in her toy basket in the next room. Each morning that I get to see that precious little face looking at me (no matter how early), I am amazingly blessed and grateful for God’s gift. Each of her smiles is a reminder of God’s goodness, and His restoration. Truly, we serve a great God!
